You Can Know Christ

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There are many different ways to share Jesus Christ with others. There are programs that are out such as The Romans Road, Evangelism Explosion, Living Waters Tracks, Chick Tracts, that you can hand out and just ask people if they will read it. What I have found, if you have time to talk to someone, the best way to share Christ is your own personal testimony of how you met Christ. Not everyone has the same testimony. The LORD takes each of us on different paths to get our hearts, and then He brings different people into our lives to minister to. 1 Corinthians 1:3-7.

So, what I will do is share a small part of how I met the Living God. I was raised in a Preacher’s home. What was said in the pulpit was not practiced at home. It was kinda like Dr. Jeykll and Mr. Hyde. If I had not been for the unconditional love of my mother, and her parents, I don’t know if I ever could have understood His unconditional love. 

It was a beautiful day in June of 1992. My then husband and I were sitting on the porch of a house that we had just built. My now Ex and I were pot users. (After we were married, I found out that he was involved with more than just pot.) With that being said, he was ALWAYS happy, because he was on drugs. I never really saw him unhappy. While we were sitting on the porch that day, he was sullen, sad, and downcast. I had never see him like this and I asked him "what in the world could be wrong" (I couldn't think of anything that could be wrong unless he had cheated on me.) I said, "the only thing in the world that I could think of is if you cheated on me." (You see, in my life, I had been bean emotionally and sexually abused since I was of the age of 6 or 7 and add physically abused since I was 22 [All by people in the church]). So, pretty much my life had been stripped from me since I was very young. The only thing I had left that I valued was MONOGOMY, and that was my one absolute. When he looked up at me he did not even have to say a word. I knew exactly what was wrong! He had betrayed MY ONE ABSOLUTE! I was so angry. I had been beaten, raped and emotionally abused, but none of that hurt as much as that betrayal!

 I got up, went into the house, and SLAMMED the door! (The kind of SLAM that said "don't follow me, just leave me ALONE!”) Well he was stupid enough to follow me. He said, "why don't you just hit me or beat me up". Believe me, I felt like it, but that wasn't who I was. I said, "that may make you feel better, but it won't make me feel better". You see, I think he thought that if I hurt him back he would be paying some penance for what he had done. But that really didn't matter, because at that moment the LORD reached down and touched my shoulder. HE said, "Do you realize that you have betrayed ME far more than he ever could have betrayed you". (Except for murder or adultery, I had broken every one of God's laws that I was raised with.) But before I could react, HE said ,"BUT I STILL LOVE YOU!"

 Oh my Goodness. God loved me just where I was at. Lost in Sin. Dirtier than I could ever have imagined when I was young. “But God demonstrates His own love toward us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.“ Romans 5:8 NKJV. If God could love me after I had broken all of His Laws, now that's a God I could give my heart to. AND I did give God my heart. 

Everything in my life changed. For me, the drugs were gone by July. The Bible that I had read over and over, yet could not understand, finally came to life and my eyes were opened. I could hear His Voice, and He said “I Love You!” He had relentlessly pursued me and He left the 99 to rescue me.(Luke 15:4-7) 

Why me? Why did He choose me? I was nothing. I had nothing to offer Him but a broken life, but He wanted me! Again, let me say, If I had not had the unconditional love of my mother, I don’t know if I ever could have understood His unconditional love. He knew me and I knew HIM for the first time in my life. Not for what people said he was but for what (HE) The Word, said who He was.

 I would go through all of it again, just to KNOW HIM. Not to pretend or play that I knew Him while I still was dying inside, BUT TO KNOW HIM!  "In this the Love of God was manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we loved God, but He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation" (to satisfy the wrath of God over sin) "for our sins.” I John 4:9,10. “We love Him because He first loved us.” 

I John 4:19 NKJV